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Above all, know thyself. No, its not the biblical term for masturbation. I mean the apparent phenomenon that many people don't actually know themselves well enough to anticipate their own reactions to any number of random stimuli. Or worse, the same stimuli under different circumstances. Yes, I run into this on a near-daily basis. I even have a helpful reverse-idiom of sorts at the ready for times I encounter it. Its my get out of jail free card. I ask more or less, "Is my request the first of its nature?" I ask it to anyone who's job it is to perform a very specific function, yet who appear genuinely surprised * when its my turn to ask it of them.


The Judeo-Christian systems of belief would have you believe that the meek are going to inherit the earth. Not meek as its defined now, as it was. To mean gentle, yielding. As in turning oneself over to the service of the Lord and not fighting against His Will (Thy Will be done). I've sat through many a sermon agonizing over and studying the original Hebrew dialect in order to gain understanding of the word choice first used by King David in Psalms and later by Christ in Matthew. After all, who doesn't want to inherit the earth?


Unsurprisingly, I feel differently. Not that I don't want to inherit the earth - I do, but that I alone shall inherit it. At least, myself and those of my ilk. For its not the meek who will do so, rather the open-minded; those who can integrate new information into their belief system and exceed the limitations of their programming. The funny thing about close-mindedness as an ethos is that it has a way of proving itself ineffective through active rejection of newly discovered knowledge. So if the close-minded can claim that they shall inherit the earth through close-mindedness, I can certainly claim otherwise - and I have a whole lot more confidence in the unprejudiced, unbigoted, and impartial than the millions of monotheists out there who would disagree with me. Close-mindedness just seems like such a dead-end way of life despite their unsubstantiated claims to the contrary.


I personally learn through a process of doing - hands on experimentation. Succeeding and failing both. If the outcome is not as expected, I change a variable and try again. Some people give up entirely upon their first failure and see any further attempts as fruitless defeatism. Others try and try again, but miss completely the learning portion of the lesson by refusing to change any variables. In this case, I feel that I am with what I have presumed is the majority - those who persevere no matter their ideology, and that I can at least respect.


Changing, growing, can be as difficult as attempting to define something as elusive as love. Some make lists of things they do which prove love, or have ideas about another's actions which would run contrary to that list, thus disprove it - after all, we all see the world differently. Myself? I only know the depth of my feelings of affection and devotion - without lists. The moment I've written it down it runs the risk of limiting me - slowing me down from experiencing something which may greatly add to my exposure. Lists can get confining fast, and most of us aren't into limiting our expressions of love, but growing them - exceeding both the expectations of others, and expectations of self. Think Old Testament versus New Testament. In the former "works" were required for blessings, in the latter only Grace.


And speaking of sweeping theological changes, ever since Christ said so then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot I will spue thee out of my mouth, I've been walking the narrow path between two camps of hotheads everywhere I go. No matter what the subject of conversation is, NO ONE WANTS TO BE SPEWED FROM JESUS' MOUTH. They therefore run full hot, or full cold, under the assumption that one is more important than the other, never bothering to question why, and only seeking council and advice from like-minded folk which is nothing more than egotistical validation. These people are incapable of feeling shame, replacing it with pride and calling it humility. How can I combat that?


I was a teenager when my mother explained to me that I needed to get to know myself. I thought she was an idiot - I was me for goodness sake - how could I not know me? Of course I discovered what she meant during the months I spent in near-isolation the first time I left home. 5,130 miles from home to be precise. And have since learned that there are other activities in which to acquaint yourself with...yourself. The same tools used in character-building can also illuminate autognosis if you allow it, as its something which requires nurturing. And despite my own series of scenarios of how I would behave in any series of circumstances, even I'm surprised by my own emotional reactions at times. Except that by adding that knowledge to my data-set then helps me in anticipating it in future outcomes, thus strengthening my armament for dealing with whatever life throws at me. Perfect? No. Better than being continually (and more often than not negatively) surprised by life? Absolutely.


I told a young man once what my father told me when I was a young man, "The severe polarity you feel righteously about is common amongst youth. As you grow, learn, experience and mature, you'll start to question everything. And when you do, you'll find you become more moderate in your views as you discover the truth, which always lies somewhere in the middle." I explained to this young man that my father's words were true because it was just as I had experienced it, and I wanted him to experience it as well. This freedom from a lifetime of ignorance. The youth said I was stupid for being so weak to turn away from [whatever the ideological conversation was at the time].


So go forth and be meek. Or not. Run hot and cold. It doesn't matter, you're not going to inherit the earth. I am. I will outlast you. I will try and fail and learn and succeed. My dizzying array of hands-on empirical activities will trump your hibernation because I am infinitely flexible. Entropy destroys that which is unchanging - like those principles you put so much stock into - but has a difficult time feeding from that which grows and I am on a path of personal growth. I'll get mine in the end, and this is why.







* http://ehowton.livejournal.com/322402.html

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The weight of the world is too heavy to rest upon mismatched, uneven pillars of self. We're not strong enough to bear that burden for long without stress cracks from the weight and constant motion of the societal superstructure we support. Raise therefore your children in an image other than your own, for we are all flawed. Increase their chances of survival by arming them with open-mindedness - For the things you believe now differ from when you were young, and shall differ again before your demise. Why then would we willingly sabotage those who will lead and those who will follow by teaching them to hold onto our current whims?

Ethical discipline is the indispensable means for mediating between the competing claims of my right to happiness and others' equal right. ~ HHDL

"I was wrong," is easy to say as an adult who's changed their mind, but much to late to easily remove it as a filter from a child who has clung to the values as so sacred that it permeates their every thought and action and threatens to be propagated to their children and their children's children. Four generations of fuck-up because of your ignorance. Raise your children instead to question everything - then teach them patience by doing so yourself when you answer them because they've turned that directive upon you. You may learn something in the process as your answers are challenged - this is a good thing, and keeps us sharp for remembering why we do the things we do instead of slipping into the comfort of apathy.

Your children are your legacy - don't propagate a legacy of dumb. ~ ehowton

Please don't pollute our future with your narrow-mindedness. Show your kids both sides of the coin - explain to them why you believe what you believe and then what other's believe - explain the similarities and the differences both. Invocation of balance doesn't make it so, only its practice. The opposite of multiculturalism isn't individualism, but it should threaten (territorial) nationalism - our borders are artificial1 and our beliefs colored through ignorance or greed or both. You look as just as stupid to the group you're calling stupid. "Why can't they understand?" is fervently uttered aloud on both sides and the word tolerance is used as an epitaph.

All religion, my friend, is simply evolved out of fraud, fear, greed, imagination, and poetry. ~ Edgar Allen Poe

The United States of America is the first (and to date only) nation based on an idea, rather than on geography or ethnicity. And not just any idea, but the highest ideals which the human mind can formulate: freedom, responsibility, self-reliance, equality of opportunity, individualism. And that to be patriotic in America is a shorthand way to declare one’s allegiance to these philosophical ideals.2 Those who wish to destroy what we've built and everything we've become are broken, and I don't know how to fix them. With my hands tied, all I can strive for is being a better person myself, and eschewing greed.









1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7AWnfFRc7g
2 http://pajamasmedia.com/zombie/2010/08/31/whats-the-matter-with-texas
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My God is a brilliant statistician and the greatest anthropologist who ever existed
His vast accumulation of data proves His word has been perverted over a millena of word-of-mouth
It would therefore be foolish for us to accept Him on faith alone.

My God is a masterful philosopher who created sentience and cognition
His immeasurable depth of knowledge has proven mankind is incapable of understanding His will
Seek therefore if you must in respectful silence; thou shalt not proselytize.

My God is omnipotent - were he to speak to me he wouldn't hide his visage in a cheese sandwich
He has the magnificent self-given ability to present Himself to me unequivocally
And not lay upon me the burden to prove his existence to you based on my own experience.

My God is a benevolent God who frowns upon those who preach eternal damnation
His ages of ageless time-passing mock our feeble attempts to conceptualize His astronomic existence
His sadness of our hate and ignorance is eclipsed only by those who mask self-righteousness with humility.
My God puts the souls of angels in kittens and in puppies, too
They watch over us, these keepers of universal balance
Our comforters, at the ready - day and night
My God has filled the sky with a symphony of color and sound and done everything in His power to arm me with the tools I need to be happy and succeed and has turned me loose in this world with His protectors by my side.

Everything else is up to me.
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As these apparent end times quickly approach, battle lines are drawn betwixt two sets of believers, and while one cannot deny the unprecedented activity in the heavens there are those of us who - caught in the eddy between two maelstroms - await the final verdict. Are these signs indeed the foretold biblical angelic trumps of Revelations marking the second coming of Christ...or UFOs?

I've heard convincing arguments on both sides.
In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. Inside this house there is a level where no elevator can go, and no stair can reach. This level is filled with doors. These doors lead to many places. Hidden places. But one door is special. One door leads to the source. It is protected by a wall great and high, which has twelve doors and atop the twelve doors are twelve angels and names written thereon are the names of the twelve tribes of the children of Isreal. Only the One can open the door, and only during that window can that door be opened.



The fact that we - mankind, can self-ambulate; move from point "A" to point "B" under our own power fascinates me. Admittedly moreso now that I'm 40-pounds lighter. I seek places to walk, never turning down an opportunity to do so. Walking always leads to more walking. The more I do, the more I want to do. This reminds me of a time when I was in the Air Force and [livejournal.com profile] photogoot and I used to kayak. The idea that the only way to cross a body of water was through the motions of our own arms - carried out to the nth degree, our very survival was dependent upon our own fortitude, our own force of will.

Of course in the light of day, decisions made under duress seem downright foolish, though its hard to describe the feeling of panic a cacophony of noise or an eerily dark silence can bring lest its been previously experienced. Reconciling those decisions after the fact gives rise to justification in order to mask our weaknesses.
I've never sold my birthright for a bowl lentil soup, but I could see it going down that way. Hell, I'd sell my soul right now for a finger of single-malt Scotch and an ice cold bottle of Shiner 101. I'll gladly pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today.

Jesus-freaks roll their eyes at the ignorance of UFOers while the UFOers laugh uproariously at the arrogance of Jesus-freaks, each of them wrapped up so tightly in the folly of the other they're blind to the shackles which limit their own range of motion; "Blest be the tie that binds." As for me, I took the road less traveled, and that has given me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord, and it looks a lot like that scene out of Independence Day. Or not.

I've heard convincing arguments on both sides.
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I see Neutral Good as an idealist with empirical tendencies. Idealism to me seems to be the philosophy which bridges empiricism (knowledge acquired through experience alone) and rationalism (acquiring knowledge through deductive reasoning alone) by pointing out that experience is subject to reason just as reason without the filter of experience is...well, dumb. While I personally lean more toward an empiricist view, I do so because I've proven it works by achieving success (read overall happiness with my life) through its application.

That's not to say that rationalists are all a bunch of miserable moops (despite the fact that all the ones I've met seem to spend a lot of time trying to prove to me how happy they are while everything else about them screams the opposite). Truly, its difficult to hear their words above the din of their own pathetic existence. C'est la vie. Being Neutral Good means not having to worry about other people's gentle insanities, those who bray aloud as an unconditioned response to intelligent questions. To me, they're background noise.

And while the pacifist Bertrand Russell fought idealism (think Lawful Neutral) he also stated, "The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt." You know, Dude, I myself dabbled in pacifism once. Not in 'Nam of course.

Earlier this week I read 6 Scientific Reasons People Drive Like Assholes and for the second time found that I learn a lot about myself, and others reading http://cracked.com. That's both surprising *and* scary. Today's lesson is on The Dunning-Kruger Effect - how it affects me, and am I part of the problem? I swear, the older I get, the more I learn. Here we go:
Have you ever known anyone who thought they were awesome at something when, in reality, they sucked very, very badly? Even when all their friends told them they sucked? And their mother told them they sucked?
Mostly, when I run into this, I'm amused. Hell, I'll sing badly in the shower and dance like no one's watching (when no one's...you know, actually watching) in my own living room when the music is on and and I'm in a great mood - which is almost always of course (see: empiricist, above). No, the only time I have a problem with the Dunning-Kruger Effect is when someone wishes to prove to me that they don't suck. That's when it becomes problematic. Emotionally-driven "proof." If I had a dime...

Before I turn my ire onto someone else, I want to ensure that my eyes are free from plank. This is always a smart move, and I wish more people did it - it minimizes the "Nuh-uh" defense, which I seem to come up against nearly daily in my normal online interactions with people. *SMFER* (Serious Mother-Fucking Eye-Roll). And because the Cracked article was about drivers, and because I do consider myself better than most, and this article outlined one possible (and logical - I'm a whore for logic) explanation, I had to consider that I myself suffered from this Effect:
This driver will vastly overestimate his own driving abilities, while underestimating or diminishing everyone else's, and he'll be as self-assured as possible while he's doing it...a person continually sees all other drivers as worse than they are, therefore making himself look better by comparison. This is coupled with a complete inability to self-evaluate, so they go on living in their own little fantasy world where they're the king of the road...
So yeah, that's pretty much me. Shocked, I had to analyze whether or not it was applicable.

I first thought about all the times I became perturbed at other drivers, and why. Root cause, as it turns out was environmental - failure to grasp the current landscape. When I'm in stop-and-go traffic, for instance, I don't text. I'll save that shit for when I'm on an empty Interstate. I either accelerate, or decelerate when merging (the fact that I even acknowledge merging as a valid driving maneuver I feel places me well outside this study) depending upon multiple points of input, and lastly - I always use my blinker. In my 23-years of driving, I've only changed lanes, turned, or exited once without indicating, and I don't remember the events surrounding it, just that it happened. I don't even talk on the phone much anymore while driving since 07 when [livejournal.com profile] drax0r & [livejournal.com profile] jesskd26 pointed out shortcomings I was unaware of. Those with DKE balk at the gall when its brought up. As far as I'm concerned, the masses out there in their cars are indeed, oblivious fools. I've talked with some of them about this, I've heard their reasonings, and found them lacking. So me? Not Dunning-Kruger.

Where I have noticed this "effect" if you will (like aspergers, I'm not entirely convinced you're not just a dickhead) mostly is in stating differing opinions online. For myself, its about a quarter that the reply is emotional (*sigh*), a quarter that different = wrong (*double-sigh*) and fully 50% that the other person thinks their inarticulate spew has actual, measurable meaning. I've wondered aloud in the past about buffoonery masquerading as intellect, and can now add DKE to that list. Cracked goes on to say,
Cornell psychologists Justin Kruger and David Dunning describe this phenomenon as someone being "unskilled and unaware," meaning they have a specific short circuit in their brains that makes them suck at figuring out they suck.
We all know who these people are - and to me, what makes it simultaneously ironically hysterical, and unimaginatively sad, is that they're oblivious its them. I reject the notion that happiness is sucking at knowing you suck (ignorance is bliss). Rational thought tells me that like akin to being caught in the Matrix, you have know that something is wrong.
Let me tell you why you're here. You're here because you know something. What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad.
What if you suspect its you? Ask yourself these two questions - Are you happy? Do people often approach you - complete strangers even - and ask you why you're always in a good mood? Or are you often frustrated? Is it others who frustrate you, or yourself? You busy yourself with rote tasks and call yourself fulfilled. Do more.

Do all the good you can,
By all the means you can,
In all the ways you can,
In all the places you can,
At all the times you can,
To all the people you can,
As long as ever you can.

--Attributed to John Wesley
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align boxre·tweet. v. The command Tweety-bird gives when pulling back his forces from the front lines against Sylvester. "Retweet! Retweet!"

I read two online articles which were retweeted on Twitter recently: World's Saddest Internet Argument Techniques & The 8 Most Obnoxious Internet Commenters.

I was instantly flush with anger from my own repetitive experiences with this, but my fury was misplaced - and not even because part of what vexes me is that my bane can't be pigeonholed into any single instance in those lists - he adeptly incorporates them *all* by effortlessly slithering betwixt them in a highly evolved, very subtle dance of complete and unutterable ignorance, masquerading as knowledge when he states his ridiculous opinions as fact. And while I try very hard to not fall into this trap, I was always able to justify it to myself as guidance. But even that became a frustration trigger for me. No, those articles made me realize that I was angry at me.
"An ounce of bargaining, a pinch of trickery, a soupçon of intimidation, and voilà! The perfect recipe for a towering reputation without ever having to spill one drop of blood."

I have lived my entire life with the belief that logic and knowledge will ultimately rid the world of unimaginably blinding stupidity. With the patience of understanding and correction, one man could eventually change the environment around him.

I realize now that is both foolish and naive, for not only am I far outnumbered, the weak of mind are strong in their resolve. This isn't some Hollywood underdog story, nor is it reminiscent of the Battle of Thermopylaethe - greater strength AND greater numbers working in unison will always win. Most people I come up against are proud of their ignorance. They flaunt it! With that attitude, one simply cannot ever win. They win by losing and declare victory. They toil in a prison of their own creation and claim they are free over the din of the shackles which bind them.

Ignorance is not bliss. Its not even a gilded cage. Rose-colored glasses are a temporary solution which will blind you from overuse.

Those with meek constitutions and/or the pure of heart should not read any further, for I am going to provide just a few examples of *actual* dialog that I have (embarrassingly) responded to, ignoring the overwhelming WTF-factor in an attempt to bring balance to the force. This is NOT sugar-coated nor fabricated. Thankfully I have links for some of the more outrageous ones - were I to have been only able to provide proof for the *less crazy* ones, I might've been accused of making these up. Not my finest moments. Italics me:

Why did I do it? What compelled me? That might be best answered here: I'd like to ignore your ravings, and I would were it not for the same thing which always reels me in like a fish caught on a hook: If I don't expose your strawman, those who don't know any better might think you know what you're talking about. And I feel a responsibility to my readers to not let that happen.

You see, its not so much that I don't comprehend that a strawman has been erected as a hastily constructed blockade - I do. I simply thought that by careful explanation as to *why* I recognized it for what it was, it would lose its power and simply...disappear.

But as with many mythological creatures, it feeds upon the very belief of its existence, and I was an unwilling participant in animating its lifeless husk with sustainable life. I am no longer fooled - the strawman is a real, energy-draining entity which has at its disposal untold legions of fanatically loyal foot-soldiers, and my actions were part of the problem.

Starting today, I wield an altogether different weapon - the torch of silence - which will guarantee instant and unequivocal consumption in a flash of smoke and ash if that strawman even attempts to approach me. The only worrisome thing now? 6 New Personality Disorders Caused by the Internet - and I've seen strong evidence of five of the six.

Mythological creatures do exist. I wonder what else I've been wrong about?


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Its not ignorance I despise. We're all ignorant of things we have no knowledge of - but its those holdouts who choose to either remain ignorant or somehow refrain from knowledge (those who actively block understanding perhaps believe ignorance is bliss and will somehow lead a more fulfilling life) which grate on me the most, because of the obstructionism which invariably follows.

My first joint assignment I was absolutely floored that they put an Army Staff Sergeant in charge of us because he was of higher rank - only because in the Air Force we attain rank differently, that is, under a different set of circumstances than those in the Army do. All of us Senior Airmen had been in for 4-years. Our progression was made up of Time in Rank, Time in Grade, and testing scores of the knowledge of our career field. The SSgt. who was put in charge of us was 2-years out of school, but he'd done really well on his push-ups. Bitter? YOU BET! To this day I say you cannot effectively lead an intelligence squadron based on physical fitness alone.

Same thing with managers. I really respect those of my managers who have a working knowledge of the work in which we do. The others? It has always ended badly. And yet they're the ones responsible for making the decisions. Take storage for example...

Every time I've been involved in a storage solutions sales orientation, sales guys outline their products utilizing the Project Triangle. This assigns speed, redundancy, and cost to each point of an equilateral triangle ending with the statement to the IT Manger to "Pick any two."

Every single time, without fail the manager states, "I want all three!"

*sigh*

Enter the pre-sales tech guy who smart salesmen rarely travel without. The pre-sales tech guy explains in a high-level overview that each of the sides of the triangle are interrelated. That is, for the unitiated, THEY'RE REPRESENTED BY A TRIANGLE FOR A REASON. Any two can be accomplished at any time, which will mathematically result in the third one being omitted. Its not magic, really. Let me explain.

  • I can build you a fast, low-cost system, but it won't be redundant.

  • I can build you a low-cost redundant system, but the very nature of that redundancy will be slow.

  • I can build you a fast redundant system, but that's going to double your hardware costs, and won't be cheap.


And yes, its in this defining moment that the accidental manager looks thoughtful, then replies, "Unacceptable!" And suggests that maybe another vendor would be able to defy this logic as if it were merely a statistical anomaly.

This identical scenario has happened to me many, many times.

The pointy-haired boss is not a myth. He is out there.



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As each of us toils through our day, everyday, each individual thing we see or do is based upon assumptions.

Our own empirical dataset is inexorably flawed because we interpret our own experiences differently than others may have experienced them, falling again to assumption as we draw from ourselves in previous situations to react to new ones. We take things for granted every moment of our lives and live in a world of assuming the things we see and do will react as we expect them to. This is required to function. Our entire lives are made up of a series of natural deductions. Its how we've made it as far as we have.

Having assumptions is more about things you've experienced rather than new revelations unveiled, and its these situations where you're more likely to err. Those who refuse to 'make assumptions' have already failed insofar as they've just created a paradox by assuming they shouldn't. EVERYTHING is based upon what we, as individuals believe is true, and our reaction to them.

So please, refrain from telling me I'm "making an ass" of myself because I've "assumed" something.

You're just showing your weakness to assert your own dataset of rules, and you reek of ignorance.

Thank you.
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"Ignorance of certain subjects is a great part of wisdom."

-- Hugo De Groot


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