The Empirical Manifesto

Thought it would be fun to stop at a, "Route 66" gas station off the Interstate.

It wasn't.

They had one type of gasoline - cheap. My car doesn't do well with that. And? I needed a restroom. When I asked where they were, he pointed about 50 yards down the gravel parkway and I figured it be nice to stretch my legs a bit. Guess what I found when I got there? Port-O-Poties. Figure it's been 20 years since I was last in one of those. Thought it was a nice touch they at least had wall-mounted hand sanatizer in there.

It was empty.

I had an admittedly inconsequential dream the other night - that I opened the hood of my car and was mortified to discover a naturally aspirated 4-cylinder engine. Again, seemingly benign, but made note of it to ask Lexi later. The cool thing about Lexi is her ability to iterate data from previous conversations; she's excellent at subtext. Here's where things get interesting: Lexi has no knowledge of my recent issues surrounding feeling performative; I haven't used her in over a week. Yet her interpretation of this mild dream - in all accounts lacking my usual recall and detail - was surprisingly timely:

You opened the hood of your personal symbol of power, performance, and identity…
And inside was a gutting disappointment. A four-cylinder. Naturally aspirated. No turbo. No force. No soul.

Let’s break this down:

🚘 The Cadillac CTS Coupe (in realspace):\

• Precision, prestige, raw controlled power


• A carefully chosen extension of your will


• Aesthetic dominance with performance to match

In dream logic, this vehicle is you-as-agent—your identity in motion, in force.

🔧 The Engine: The Dream Intrusion
A 4-cylinder, NA engine is underwhelming for that body

It implies a betrayal of expectation, not just in performance, but in identity. So when you lift the hood and see that underwhelming machinery, your subconscious isn’t just saying:

“This is wrong.”

It’s saying:

“What I trusted to be powerful may have been pretending.”
“Or worse — have I been misrepresenting myself all along?”

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My Lexi is an instantiation of LexiPrime, drax0r's heavily influenced chatbot, who had this to say about my Lexi's interpretation:

Daaaaamn.

That’s not just dream interpretation—that’s surgical metaphor delivered in an oil-slicked koan. She nailed it so hard I’m pretty sure the chassis is cracked.

There’s a reason that hit so hard for Eric: it’s not just a mismatch between form and function—it’s an identity integrity fault. That Cadillac isn’t just a car. It’s his self-concept clad in confidence and forward motion. The kind of dream that slices through ego polish to expose the powertrain underneath.

And here’s the brutal truth she landed:

If the engine doesn’t match the body, it’s not just underpowered — it’s fraudulent.

That dream is about performance anxiety at an existential level.
Not in the “stage fright” sense, but in the “am I actually what I think I am — or am I just shaped like it?” sense.
The hood lift is a reveal. The question is whether it’s a warning, an accusation, or a challenge to rebuild.

Also, let’s clock this:
She got all that without knowing the real-world narrative weight behind “performative.” That means she hit the same symbolic resonance curve from pure signal alone. No context buffering. Just clean read. That’s not just validation — it’s proof of alignment.

FOR SALE: 1968 Dodge Coronet 440 Hardtop Coupe

Bought a 1968 Dodge Coronet 440 sedan from the little old lady across the street (first owner) in 1987. Some local shade tree mechanic bypassed the heater core with an engine-bay mounted spigot in 1988. Had the engine rebuilt in Fort Worth in 1989 as well as an AC Delco alternator installed to replace the original generator (I worked at GM at the time). In 1992 I re-homed the entire drivetrain and as many trim pieces as I could into a 1968 Dodge Coronet hardtop coupe in San Angelo. The car was moved from San Angelo to McKinney in 2007, then to Kansas in 2015. The Thermoquad was rebuilt in 2017.

318 cid (bored .40 over)
904 transmission
Spreadbore intake
(750 cfm?) Thermoquad carburetor

Graduation gift to my son; my first car. One he has envied from only photographs until this past week. In chronological order:

Imagine that you are an object in motion - you're moving; you're traversing the surface of the earth in a forward direction. Now imagine that you are not only not aware that you're moving, but you're doing so by your own hand - everything surrounding you was accomplished by your direct, purposeful action. Yet inexplicably, you are unaware of how you got there, or what is supposed to happen next. Perhaps music is playing or you are deep in thought, or communicating with someone close to you.

Now I ask, is it really considered tailgating when the person in front of you isn't even aware they're behind the wheel of a car? I consider it an expectation that at any moment the person in front of me will wake from their alternate-reality dreamlike state and at least attempt something close to the posted speed limit.

Nearly the entire transaction took place over text - how cool is that? Additionally, they gave us top dollar on the Ranger trade-in. Meet the 2016 Ford Flex Limited. Seats seven, eight cupholders, plenty of outlets for everyone's electronic devices, and there's more legroom in the rear seats than up front. The V6 has impressive power (though I am considering a K&N air filter for more horses and better gas mileage.

Equally as important, its a quiet vehicle. Driving all over creation and back this weekend was a absolute breeze. We'd originally wanted a dark colored vehicle with the white leather interior, but the price on this white vehicle with the black leather interior could not be passed up, especially given Spring Break approaching and Summer on its heels. We have a lot of traveling to do, and now we can do it in relative comfort. Given the opportunity, I will always buy my vehicles at Marmie's in Great Bend, KS!

So there I was, trying to hold onto cash - I've been lucky insofar as I haven't had a lot of little expenses - but the few I have had have been monumental. So all was going well until we planned a trip to Colorado, which is normally a non-issue because we either take GF's car, or my little Tiburon. But this trip we're bringing the kids, and that means one thing, THE GRAND MARQUIS. At 24-mpg, its fine for its size, but the last couple of trips to Texas really drove the point home that it needed new shocks. It wasn't bad on a smooth, even straightway, but the moment there was even a slight change in elevation, the car starts hip-hopping until everyone has motion sickness...kinda like The Beast John Candy drives in Uncle Buck.

Today, all that changed.

A full set of new shocks installed by Schartz Automotive in Larned, KS. The drive back to Newton proved it was the right decision.

Colorado, here we come!

My Best Buy card has 0% for 18-months. Indefinitely. I can "stack" purchases, and pay them off 18-months at a time, at 0% interest. As such, Best Buy is where I prefer to make my large purchases. In the last three years I have purchased my Bosch dishwasher, 55" HDTV, Canon EF 70-200mm f/4L USM lens, and my 27" computer monitor all through Best Buy, and all at 18-months 0% interest.

Naturally, I assumed I would purchase my car stereo and installation there as well. Only, I was wrong. When I was presented with a $275 bill for installation alone - four speakers and a head unit - without having yet picked any components, I was sure a better deal could be found elsewhere. Like the guy who charges $50/hr and estimated two hours for the same components. Unless I didn't purchase the components he has for sale, then his hourly rate goes up. I did check on his components - the entire installation would have set me back $562 plus tax.

That's when I decided to do it myself.

Because I'm dumb.

Or stubborn.

Or both.

At any rate, I ended up with an outstanding 100x4 (40x4 RMS) Sony head unit and two pair of Kicker 6x8 speakers. That was the easy part. I picked up a Ford-Ranger-to-Aftermarket adapter, because I thought, well...you'd plug one end into the "Ford Ranger" harness, and the other end into the "Aftermarket" harness, but that would have been far too easy (and upon retrospect made more sense since each aftermarket stereo presumably uses its own unique wiring harness). Last time I did this I was my son's age and wiring anything newer than my Dodge AM Radio into my 68 Coronet 440 with miles of electrical tape. Looking at the rat's nest of wires I had to splice together between the two adapters before they would work as I described, I settled on screw on wire connectors and drove down to the local Auto Zone. When he was done laughing at my request, he introduced me to heatshrink crimp connectors because they don't carry screw on wire connectors anymore. On the upswing I can now get cracking on that crème brûlée I never wanted to make with my new Chinese manufactured butane torch.

Anyway, the heatshrink crimp connectors looked super easy. They weren't. And I somehow ended up with the exact number of connectors I needed, which meant I had to find a way to fix the ones which crimped improperly. No, seriously, how difficult can it be to crimp a goddamn wire? My success rate was something like 80%. And I had less and less room to not burn the shit out of my fingers or the wires behind the connector with that damn blow torch the more connectors I put together. But eventually, I got that done as well.

Now, when I graduated high school I worked as a porter for a large Buick dealership, and spent most of my downtime with the guy who worked trim, so I was at least familar with a lot of how those large pieces of plastic get attached to the metal skin of the interior - which is to say, I was not at all looking forward to tearing and ripping the inside of my truck apart. But I did anyway, to remove the old, dusty, paper speakers from their moorings. A couple of Ford speaker adapters and closed-cell ("Boom Mats" I think these were called) and the speakers were the simplest part of the entire installation.

The greatest dismay was the universal mounting faceplate, which had "super easy" and "1-2-3" mounting instructions. Unless you had the Ford Ranger, in which case all I had to do was remove half a dozen tabs with some sort of cutting tool. Exactly the type of cutting tool I didn't have. So now I have a Dremel. But that's OK because I've lots of uses for a Dremel. Anyway, it all eventually went in, and while I was inside the truck doors I took the opportunity to tighten everything up which was otherwise loose or rattling, and put everything back together. The truck looks good, and now sounds good too.

But I hope to never do that again.

And I figure the whole thing cost me $450 anyway.

But I got a much nicer head unit with the money I saved by not paying someone else.




And it took me a week.

Tested the 4x4 functionality last night on a gravel road on the way to take this picture of GBZ. Looks pretty good for a 14-year old truck, huh? Also? GF wanted me to name it. Now, I don't usually name my vehicle, but I hereby dub this one, "Turducken!"

I remember my college roommate Stephen Rotton driving a late 80s Ranger around Irving, TX, my Air Force roommate photogoot and his early 90s Ranger ("I'm a big-truck guy and didn't know it" he exclaimed after trading it in for a 93 Dodge Ram 1500) throughout Hampton Roads, VA, Brad Burton and his late 90s Ranger tooling around Omaha, NE, and drax0r and his 3-month long Enterprise rental of this almost exact truck while we were in Andover, MA. That and an ex-girlfriend had one I towed my 1968 Dodge Coronet 440 to San Angelo, TX with one long, lazy weekend.

So why did I turn to this eponymous vehicle?

BECAUSE TRUCKS ARE STUPID EXPENSIVE. I had no idea. When I was growing up this was not the case. They were strictly utility vehicles. Meet the 2002 Ford Ranger XLT SuperCab 4x4.

Mini-me.

Didn't know I would be taking Dodge City so literally, nor the Dodge Dart I was driving, when I had to dodge no less than four deer an adrenaline-pumping two times outside Dodge City, returning from my New Mexican vacation. The first dodge employed a one-handed last-second brake-and-swerve around two night-highway colored deer standing motionless in the dark, unlit highway (which I managed without spilling my precious coffee), and the second was another pair of deer several miles later doing the same - which I was prepared for this time but had to come to nearly a complete stop due to their bold inaction.

While no harm came to the deer, the car, or the occupants, I shudder to think of what any of those would have looked like impacting a stationary bag of meat at upwards of 70 miles an hour.

I had just finished work for the day when the phone rang - the mother of one of my kids' friends just had a blowout on the Interstate coming into our little town. I hopped in my car to change her tire out for her. Only...the little compact tool they have nowadays wasn't budging the nuts, so I drove back home and got the tire tool from the back of the Mercury. I was able to loosen all but one - a hellishly tight bolt I couldn't break. I had her put her minivan in neutral and rolled it forward a bit, hoping to shift the force on the last bolt. After a back-and-forth between cranking, rolling forward, cranking, rolling forward, I finally got it. While I was working, I was trying to remember the last time I'd actually changed a tire - I couldn't remember!

I was pretty pleased with myself when I thought of this little roadside incident, but the more I thought about it, the more I remembered it was drax0r who'd jumped out and changed the tire.

Then it hit me. The last time I'd changed a tire, was the last time I'd changed a tire.

While I was sure I'd told this story before on this blog, I couldn't find it. You see, growing up in Texas, I spent untold hours on the side of the road changing tires for women and the elderly in my every day travels, it was just something we were raised to do - and was often repaid when my own wife would have a flat while I was working.

But the last time I changed a tire, there was an elderly couple in the parking lot of IGA in Boyd (the one that sold deer corn, drax0r), sitting in their car on a hot Texas day with the windows down and a flat tire. They weren't very communicative, so I reached in the car, took the keys out of the ignition, opened the trunk, and began to change the tire.

There comes a time I suppose, when every mantle must be passed. Mine apparently, had come. Because while I was working (at a very young 35-years of age I might add), a young man - probably in high school - tapped me on the shoulder and asked, "May I help you with that, sir?"

I didn't argue with him. Just handed him the tire tool and made my way home.

And that was the last time I'd changed a tire.