Circumcenter

[ehowton]

The mind is a fertile playground, filled with both thoughts shared, and thoughts best left unsaid. Which we choose to do with each, as a Freud would say is a job for the eternal struggle betwtix id and super-ego; a massive, heaven and hell power play which takes place in our sub-conscious mind, leaking ever so infrequently into our waking thoughts. And yet as evil and selfish as our id is made out to be, the greatest driving force behind our super-ego, fear - is far, far more damaging to those who venture out to mingle amongst others.

Fear of rejection, fear of being judged, fear of ostracism, rejection, change, failure - all these things and more from people we know, people we don't know, ourselves and even God Himself. So much fear, so much hesitation, so much environmental molding that we never even question our own motivations.

Orbs within an orb to perceive
And this sphere is your heart
And this truss its strength
Tucked away in an elongated cube
These staffs shall perambulate you
Until the end of your days.
For the fear which binds us, it also blinds us

If your best days were the bygone days of old, for what are you now living? What animates you and perhaps more importantly - do you know why? Have you ever questioned - no, studied the daily events your life, how you got there, what you hope to accomplish, but perhaps most importantly why you do it. Have you ever stepped outside of it in order to look in? Not in order to see what others see, but as a change or perspective to see what YOU see.

Rediscover yourself. If its been awhile since you pushed your envelope, by all means do so.

And never let the bastards get you down.

Comments

[jobu121.livejournal.com]

Very well said sir. It is very amazing. I have stepped outside to look inward and it scares the hell out of me - lol. Every so many years I try to reinvent myself. Not sure I am having any luck. :)

[ehowton.livejournal.com]

The fact that you try separates you from the herd. Whether you are successful or not is immaterial.

[jobu121.livejournal.com]

Thank you sir. I do try!

[michelle1963.livejournal.com]

The problem with fear is realizing when it is healthy and when it is not. Sure if a person tries something in which failure could result in someone's death or injury, then fear is absolutely a good thing.

But for many the fear of failure comes from worry about what others may think of us. How inhibiting! I wonder how often Thomas Edison got, "Oh yeah, poor Edison. He's on a wild goose chase to harness electricity into light. You know he's crackpot, don't you?" The world would be a far less rich place without such people who take risks.

Of course, it's easy for a person to say, "but I'm no Edison." True. Most of us are not ever going to be a great inventor. But I must ask, how much more rich my life and your life would be if we pushed the envelope just a bit.

I intend to give it my best shot.

I will try new things, not allowing my underlying reality map to cripple me. Perhaps I will discover that reality map needs to modified after encountering new experiences and information. After all, the initial reality map was formed out of information. Why do we hold onto them so dearly, afraid to alter them in the face of new information?

I will not shrink in horror, afraid of appearing stupid, when I come across subjects which show my ignorance; instead I will learn about said subject.

And I sure as hell will not allow what others think to slow me down ~ unless they are threatening to kill me.

[ehowton.livejournal.com]

I find new information especially fascinating if it goes against my current understanding. I am a fallible being who bases my every action and reaction on information (where applicable). I exist to continually update myself with knowledge.

Existing too long on old data results inevitably in frustration.

[catttitude.livejournal.com]

Interesting.

[ehowton.livejournal.com]

I'm on an "active" versus "passive" kick here lately :P

[ehowton.livejournal.com]

And forever timely.