Where do I even begin? Just after completing Sonnet 16 and being inspired by some of its imagery, I ordered a 4mm black opal promise ring which looked like it contained the universe within and had it delivered to Cass with the note, "I am saving myself for you in this galaxy and the next." That may have been a bit much, apparently, as I did not receive what I would consider a positive reaction. More an interrogation of my motives. That said, I found out the next day it perfectly fit her ring finger, which she found highly auspicious since I never asked her size (and she did try to force it upon any other finger in which to fit). Or, as I put it to her (copied and pasted from my actual text message):
You know precisely where I stand and my end goal. You have reiterated I may continue pursuing you. This was simply another step in that direction. Sonnets, Gothic Novel mixes, a ring… whatever will I come up with next? Stay tuned to find out!
We talked for nearly four hours again, and for the first time in nearly two full years, she actually expressed an interest. This. Is. HUGE. To recap, she once told me that the 18-months of pursuing her didn't show me what she's really like to live with, and that if I spent that kind of time with her I'd probably discover I didn't really like her after all. It was then that I promised I would platonically date her for 18-months in order to make that determination for myself. Its been a running joke with us since, despite her never committing to the experiment. In the intervening months we've semantically moved from "dating" to "data gathering missions" to utilize the new baggage-free dictionary term.
She's tentatively suggested a data gathering handfasting, where we give it a year-and-a-day (or in our case a year-and-a-half-and-a-day) before we decide our fate, with either party allowed to walk away at the end. Which in and of itself is auspicious because its been in the back of my mind for ages she'd probably benefit from the non-commitment of a, "trial marriage" which sounds eerily similar :D
Oh, and she wants to take platonic off the table.
Apparently Dorian once told her, "I really do wish you'd consider having sex with Eric at least once. It's an amazing, full experience." Cass' reply tonight? "With her manifestation skills, she really should've been more careful with what she put out to the universe."
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