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Fascinating first session, and I really don't know how to write it all down with any semblance of flow, so maybe bullet points? Also a couple of questions to which I didn't know the answer (though the questions had previously crossed my mind).
- I may not actually have (undiagnosed) ADHD. More likely, my high intelligence simply gives that appearance and mirrors the symptoms.
- I am likely starved for connection with those who can meet my intellectual needs.
- Because I see everything as data, by my very nature I would treat everyone in need as requiring a provided solution.
- This can appear as (its not) Savior Complex when exacerbated by finding someone who's simultaneously met my intellectual needs (wife's BFF, for example).
- My wife's desire to find me a suitable girlfriend may be driven by residual co-dependence.
- I may be hypersexual (her term, not mine).
- I don't know why I want to be sexually intimate with those I fall in love with (its not a requirement of mine), but that got me to thinking of the following differences (which honestly saddens me to contemplate, so maybe she's right?)
- Noetiplatonic
- Noetialterous
- Noetiromantic
- Noetisensual
- Being a gifted child has the same social challenges as being developmentally stunted.
- The grief-cycle I was going through was obvious to her: Despite logically understanding all the reasons the timing was horrific with the BFF, emotionally its not at all what I subconsciously desired. So classic conflict there I guess, ugh.
So yeah, quite a bit covered. My next session is the 18th. I plan to attend ten of these solo, then another ten with my wife.
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