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"I still remember my dream, that first night. Amazing.

But not particularly useful.

I dreamt I was a cow. There was a moment of panic when I discovered I had hooves instead of feet and four legs rather than two. I almost toppled until I realized I knew how to balance. It was an indwelling knowledge, born of simply being who I was. By the time I awoke the next morning, I had a fairly complete idea of what it was to be another creature, although not a creature I'd ever wondered much about. Still, I had found strange comfort in the slow and rolling progress of bovine thought. How wonderful the sensation of hooves sinking into soft loam. How satisfying the experience of belching up half-digested grass from my reticulum, chewing for a bit, then swallowing it down into my omasum for further processing."

~ Warlock Holmes, The Sign of Nine by G.S. Denning
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Have you ever supposed that you may really be better off dead? Douglas Tibbets never thought so either, despite the fact his life was a wreck. But everything began to look better after he met Myra, an advanced psychic who awakened his own psychic abilities and slowly helped turn his life around—growing self-assurance, a promotion at work, and a new love interest, Shirley. Then came the telepathic assaults. Douglas and Shirley narrowly fend off the bizarre forays into their minds while seeking the unknown assailant. But when they at last, find the attacker, they are both murdered. And that's when their lives truly begin.

I've often wished I could novelize my philosophies on life, much as Ayn Rand did with her two flagship novels - to provide a vehicle in which to promote them. And while Beyond the Mortal Coil cannot be compared to a Randian masterpiece in any other way, it does deal with the nature of the human experience, and its manipulation. Mostly shit I've been saying in the annals of this blog for years - that planting even very tiny seeds of positive change and watering it with repetitious practice, can reap enormous self-confidence later. That practice being of course, "Fake it until you make it." By pretending to have the very characteristics you desire, you will soon have them for realz. Its like r/l larping.


I greatly enjoyed this book, more than I anticipated. There were too many similes in the three-chapter exposition for my liking, and the contrast between the antagonist's vocabulary and his milktoast shamefacedness was a little off-putting, but by chapter eight I'd forgotten all about it, and was entirely engrossed. Total read time: Approximately 8 hours.


Now I didn't know this, but you can purchase kindle e-books and save them to your Amazon Cloud e-reader and read them in your browser - without actually owning a kindle. Which I don't. This is how I read the last three chapters of the book, so I could post this the next day :)


Anyway, reading the epilogue got me to thinking about love again - and all the limitations we place on it. Too many limitations on who we're allowed to love, and who not. Love transcends all these artificial barriers we place on ourselves and others. Class and station and race have mostly gone away, but not other malum prohibitum taboos. I guess we all have a little Puritan in us. His will be done. Why I've heard a lady who wouldn't bat an eye at homosexuals announce that "25 years is my limit for age differences!" Really? What if the *perfect* mate were 26 years older, or younger. Think about that - the perfect mate fell outside your rigid limitations by a single year. What then? And if you give in for the sake of a year, what about 27 years? Would you give in for two? And we all know where this leads - back to Sodom and Gomorrah. And yet if something as easy as when we were born can be set aside, cannot other limiting factors as well? I've fallen in love with much older women, and I've fallen in love with much younger women - simply because of who they were and nothing else. Hell, I've even dreamed I might've fallen in love with a dude. Love simply, is. If I've learned anything this past year, its just that, that love is. It exists and there is nothing we can do to control it.

Go out today, and be excellent to each other.

And don't worry so much about what other people might think.


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Eric Howton Beyond the Mortal Coil Newton KS 2012
Not an accurate representation of [livejournal.com profile] ehowton reading.

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Seems everyone but me has a book list out these days. Well guess what? I stopped reading for about a year. I had other shit going on in my life. But, now that I have less. Let's see what I've amassed in the intervening months (I'm really only going to focus on the books around my desk - those I consider the most immediate). Listed in no order of importance, from top to bottom:


  • Beyond the Mortal Coil (nearly complete) - William L. Churchman & Michelle Churchman

  • Everything 101 - Sonne

  • Atlas Shrugged (started last year; will start from beginning) - Ayn Rand

  • The Chatham School Affair (galinda, maybe?) - Thomas H. Cook

  • Spook Country (drax0r traded me this for the audiobook) - William Gibson

  • 50 Ideas You Really Need to Know - Religion - Peter Stanford

  • 50 Philosophy Ideas You Really Need to Know - Ben Dupre

  • The Religion Book (more of a reference, really) - Willis

  • Whatchamacallit (going to give to Dad next month) - Danny Danziger & Mark McCrum

  • The Philosopher's Handbook (onionskin paper & really tiny print - hard to dent) - Rosen

  • The Element Encyclopedia of 20,000 Dreams (my primary dream reference) - Theresa Cheung





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Search the search, where is justice?
Couldn't find so in God I trust this
Mind to, so strong and fruitful
Am what I am, black ain't as beautiful
Not political, but aware
Power load with a powerful stare
Never bow down to a mortal man
Here I stand at my own command!


Friday night the wife was in a really poor mood. What to do, what to do? Took her down the road while [livejournal.com profile] galinda822 watched the kids and picked up:

  • Rum

  • Vodka

  • HpnotiQ

  • Sloe Gin

  • Peach Brandy

  • Banana Liqueur

  • Southern Comfort

  • Presidente Mexican Brandy


She proceed to make us Bali Traders and her mood greatly increased. We spent Movie Night sitting in our neighbor's front lawn drinking and visiting until after 2200 when the (almost) unanimous decision was made to call it a night. I was surprisingly drunk as I had only had two mixed drinks, but exhausted from my day I managed to fall asleep sometime between laying down in my bed, and actually hitting the pillow.

Not a follower, not a leader
An exceeder, sharp as a cleaver
Some are sinners, some are praisers
Me, Turbo-B, Heavenly hell-raiser
Two from the hip make some folks stagger
Straight to the heart like a 12-inch dagger
Motley, way of the world -
Gaze upon the Black Pearl!


Yesterday we picked up Carla and drove out to the bookstore where we got the newest Laurell K. Hamilton Vampire Hunter Series book, and I picked up JSA which as you all know I've been looking for. The most expensive movie to come out of South Korea and surprising local hit. I found the movie fascinating the first time I watched it, and cannot wait to view it again - apparently there's a second, more subtle storyline in there most viewers miss upon first viewing. We ate at Chevy's Tex-Mex on the way home. As always, it was fantastic. The best Tex-Mex we've found to date in St. Louis. I'm still waiting for them to build us a Chipotle!

The bigger the badder, bull!
In this game of life, knowledge rules
The one with the brain is the sole survior
What goods a tank with a stupid driver,
See? Don't be a dimwit - ignorant
Really a backwit
Where's the fitness?
This is legit, can I get a witness?


Out at Carla's dad's last night for fireworks and festivities. I chain-smoked cigars and met as many people as I could. It was eerily identical to Fourth of July with my wife's family. The show was spectacular! I'd not seen a private collection of so many fireworks in all my years. There was the one giant starburst that had a broken base, so they secured it to the ground and lit it. I wasn't standing nearly as close as everyone else when it exploded. The concussion nearly knocked me off my feet! They did a fantastic job with the fireworks and my son likened it to Disneyworld (though he's never been) and my daughter, upon watching a fountain exclaimed, "That makes me feel happy inside."

Not the oppressed, the oppressor
Don't make this one anything lesser
Racist? You don't wanna hear it
But if the shoe fits then wear it
Life is tough so we gotta be tougher
Be smart, to outbluff the bluffer
Feet to mind, to a wisdom beat
Absorb the knowledge I speak


Took the boys to Fudd's for lunch and ate too much, as is usual when I'm there. Sent the gang home at 1530 which allows me an hour and a half of absolute stillness and solitude. Except the wife wants me to move the couch we moved into the basement last month, back up. Brinkmeyer called and we're going to postpone the visit this time around, re-scheduling for the end of July. I hope it's not the 20th, cause that's when I'm flying to D.C. hopefully with time to catch up with yet another couple of Air Force buddies (who happen to be married to each other - Ewwww!) so I feel this month will be my busiest, yet!

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