2024 - Tenth Session

[ehowton]

Geekfriend wanted me to see a psychologist instead of a therapist. However, there are no psychologists in my area. Tess did tell me the only difference between therapists and psychologists was their ability to perform standardized tests, which I would simply blow through anyway.

This session I told her that I'm used to being the one who people come to for ideas on unique perspectives, but when I first fell in love with Cass, I realized she was my peer in this endeavor - that she had her own unique perspectives which I found refreshing- and how that has mutated over the last year to a bit of role-reversal, as I have learned so much from her. Not merely learned, but in the way she alone has challenged me, I have expired my old way of thinking and have been drawing new conclusions; how absolutely wonderful that was to be challenged in the way she challenges me, the way no one else ever has. And yes, how surely that is part of my attraction to her, and how given the events over the past two years, I imagine it persisting throughout the rest of my life were I to spend it with her.

We touched briefly on the importance of shared values, which I explained were nearly identical, despite Cass sometimes feeling otherwise, and why - that the values Cass holds are simply synonyms for, or subsumed under my own, giving her a couple of examples. She agreed and moved on.

Tess explained that Cass struggles internally with the relationship with her former best friend, but was amazed at how gentle I am with simply providing different perspectives and sitting back waiting for her patiently to do her own processing. I told Tess she does the same with me, and it's simply beautiful when she does. I foresee a lifetime of growth ahead of us both given our unique relationship and thirst for knowledge and continuous improvement.

When I mentioned Geekfriend's opinion on the matter, Tess asked if it was possible she was just jealous. Pretty sure my mouth dropped open. "What?!?!?! Absolutely not!" So then I had to describe the nature of my relationship with her, which admittedly is difficult to do. So much so, I don't plan to ever attempt it again. I did leave out the part about the giant elf penis which will ultimately end up on my daughter's wall, because I believe that would be too much for any therapist to wrap their head around. When I mentioned this to Geekfriend, once again she mentioned not being surprised at all, and had expected it. I of course did not expect it. At all. It was great for a laugh though.

Cass is scheduled to join us via TELEHEALTH for three sessions starting next month. If she enjoys/finds value in it, I can extend those, but its a great start.