2025 - Thirtieth Session

[ehowton]

There has been so much going on in my life I haven't blogged my last six sessions or so. Tess is literally the Michael Jackson eating popcorn in Thriller meme every single time I step into that office. She wants to write a book about me. So let's see if I can catch you up over the past six weeks.

TL;DR

I laughed, I cried, I thought; I synthesized
Paced, sat, pontificated and talked about this and that

For someone who prides themselves on keeping detailed notes within the annals of this blog, I really don't remember what I have or have not yet disclosed. My month off was a whirlwind of emotion all wrapped up in a tidy staycation (that somehow also spanned hundreds of miles on my car). Very nearly every week was some new breakthrough in my own understanding of myself which came via repeated cycle of identify, process, adapt. The first time I burst into tears was because I realized I had an overwhelming amount of gratitude I was misidentifying (and in turn stomping down) which turned out to be fairly transformative. After that I existed in a rare (for me) liminal space, burst through that, wash, rinse, repeat.

Tess has been there for all of it.

Last week she pushed. That's not something she does, so I wondered later if it was something she felt I needed. Either way, she seemed to express pride over me setting - and upholding - boundaries, and the positive impact it seems to be having in my life.