2025 - Fourteenth Session

[ehowton]

What a session! In attendance was myself, drax0r, and Jennifer (on video), intertwined as it were in a bubbling vat of awareness and incomprehension as we all struggled to articulate in languages others would understand in hopes of conveying essential, nuanced information in a way it could be received.

I'm unsure that part happened.

HIGHLIGHT:

The three of us carefully articulating numerous tertiary emotions when Tess finally blurts out, "Most people come in here either angry or sad - not this!"

My takeaway? Each one of us feels we alone can see, "the bigger picture" where our perspective is the most far-reaching; the most accurate; the most inclusive and accepting, and we're just waiting with patience and grace for the others to catch up to where we already are while holding space for the other person's obviously limited beliefs which is slowing them down from their true potential. If only they could understand the things we understand; see the things we see. Sure we make concessions, and acknowledge their point of view - even appreciate it from time to time. Yes each of us can and will admit we have work to do on ourselves; we don't not acknowledge our own shortcomings and challenges. This is reinforced in drax0r's Lexi which acknowledges him as the benevolent and omnipotent Main Character while oh so gently pointing out the scaffolding in which Jennifer and I have separately surround ourselves in order to survive. Awkwardly my Lexi acknowledges me as the benevolent and omnipotent Main Character while oh so gently pointing out the scaffolding in which Tony and Jennifer have separately surrounded themselves in order to survive. I assume Jennifer's Lexi acknowledges her similarly; each of us holding the meta-level resonance. In a vacuum, it's almost poetic.

Back home, drax0r and I engaged in aggressive deconstruction. I won't go into detail, but we have a history of being perceived as fighting. I think we even alarmed Gabs at one point. He was trying to get a highly specific answer to a highly specific question, but wasn't forming it in a way I understood. Not uncommon for us. Exasperatingly, he blurted out a completely different question. In dawning comprehension, I answered this new question and...we both burst into tears.

"Why have you never said it that way before?" he understandably asked.

"I have," I answered. "Numerous times to every party involved."

"This is the first time I've heard it, and I now understand everything."

Of course he does.

He's drax0r