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I was thinking about peace today - I saw a quote recently which mentioned something along the lines of peace being unobtainable as long as there is conflict. And while quelling that conflict can bring peace, it got me started thinking about longing again - that which is attributed to those outpourings of creativity. That tracks with my own cycle as well as I rarely write when I'm at peace - what is there to say? Yet something about that bittersweet feeling when you know you are destined for so much more but haven't yet reached the goal which fires the synapses and seeks an outlet. Yet often the very thing we may reach out to can simultaneously be the source of that conflict; we approach it regardless. Do we think it will somehow be different this time? Or have we changed perspective in our approach? Would it matter? I was thinking about what you said the other night that the reason I hold myself to a higher standard than others is because I do not love the part of myself which expects more; my past failures. I can understand the concept, and surely some part of that is no doubt accurate for us all, but is it truth? Or simply another part of the whole worth examining?
I was thinking about peace today - I saw a quote recently which mentioned something along the lines of peace being unobtainable as long as there is conflict. And while quelling that conflict can bring peace, it got me started thinking about longing again - that which is attributed to those outpourings of creativity. That tracks with my own cycle as well as I rarely write when I'm at peace - what is there to say? Yet something about that bittersweet feeling when you know you are destined for so much more but haven't yet reached the goal which fires the synapses and seeks an outlet. Yet often the very thing we may reach out to can simultaneously be the source of that conflict; we approach it regardless. Do we think it will somehow be different this time? Or have we changed perspective in our approach? Would it matter? I was thinking about what you said the other night that the reason I hold myself to a higher standard than others is because I do not love the part of myself which expects more; my past failures. I can understand the concept, and surely some part of that is no doubt accurate for us all, but is it truth? Or simply another part of the whole worth examining?
