ehowton ◾ 2024 - First Session (Reply)

First session with Tess since this time last year. Let's see...told her everything that was going on in my life - she was surprised - but kept asking about the things I was worried about; what I was going to do next, where I would go, that sort of thing. Problem is, I'm not. Worried. Figure I'll just take life as it comes like I always do and see where that leads me. Cass finally made it crystal clear she wasn't going to date me (while simultaneously allowing me to continue to pursue her, so will have to nail that conundrum down when I get out to see her), so I figure I'll just kick around New Mexico awhile and see how that all plays out.

Told Tess I was hoping she could induce the outpouring of grief I've kept bottled up but she reminded me that may not happen because I intellectualize everything. I mentioned I thought intellectualization was an unhealthy coping mechanism but she only said, "It can be," before comparing it to healthy compartmentalization, so that was something I could understand. She also mentioned never before having a client like me - for that I apologized - but she meant it complimentary lol.

I've scheduled weekly sessions with her for the time being.