ehowton ◾ 2026 - First Session (Reply)

Chatted about receiving. Just because it is mentioned doesn't necessarily make it true; how does receiving manifest itself for me I believe I do, how does it not manifest for those who believe I don't? If I don't, where might that stem? I gave her my daughter's answer - that I was an easy, brilliant child who didn't require my parents constant intervention which provided them opportunity to focus on my brother who was not.

"When was the last time you were happy, and why?" she asked. That was far more difficult to answer than I anticipated (she no doubt noticed). I settled upon the last time I experienced NRE. The why (to me) was self-evident; I have blogged on that extensively. This lead to the hypothesis that the Cass-led mandate for me to date others was a block which needed to be overcome perhaps to open me to receiving.

Tess then asked about the ending of relationships for me. Well, my last two marriages were over when instead of honest communication and taking responsibility for our own actions, there was finger-pointing and blame. I guess I don't do well with that. Like, I can overcome loss of trust when mistakes are owned, but what is there to fight for when mistakes aren't owned? Enjoy my money while deep-down knowing you kinda suck as a person I guess as long as you don't ever have to externally acknowledge anything 👍