Deep in the bosom of the gentle night, is when I search for the light; Pick up my pen and start to write
I struggle, I fight dark forces in the clear moonlight; Without fear. Insomnia. I can't get no sleep
I'm working on about 4-hours sleep a night since Thursday night due to my machines at work paging me ceaselessly from about midnight to 0400 every single night to the point I may not make it in tomorrow. I've been working on building out a computer for my mother during these extended waking hours, which cratered after I put 20-hours into it; bad disk. All that time and I have nothing to show for it. I replaced the 160GB drive with another spare of the same size which did the same thing. And while we're on the subject, why does XP still insist on using a floppy drive? SP3! C'mon, thumbdrive me, baby! I had to pull out my USB
floppy drive to create a driver disk - which XP can't see during install, so had to find a 40-pin cable and a drive. Ugh.
I used to worry. Thought I was going mad in a hurry; Getting stressed, making excess mess in darkness
No electricity, something's all over me. Greasy. Insomnia, please release me
Bought and assembled, then utilized, a wheelbarrow and an edger/weed-eater today after I mowed the lawn. It was a beautiful day for it - sunny & cool. Last night I pulled my two new boxes out of my rack and reconfigured them. Yes, the ESX server sees all 6GB of interleaved RAM - BAM! Unfortunately, I now see why the Windows group is in charge of it - almost no tools to administer it with unix. And since I no longer have an XP box...I installed VMware Workstation on my new linux box...which apparently doesn't run as well as it does on my laptop. CoreDuo vs. Hyperthreading best I can tell, especially since the HT proc is the faster of the two. Yes, this really sucks.
And let me dream of making mad love to my girl on the heath, tearing off tights with my teeth
But there's no release, no peace. I toss and turn without cease. Like a curse, open my eyes and rise like yeast
I just wanted to get all this done so I could lay in bed after work every day this week with my woman and watch DVD box sets. We're halfway through
Millennium and just purchased the first three seasons of
Stargate:Atlantis. What a shitty weekend. And yes, the pager is still going off! The icing on the cake is that with all this alone time spent zombie-like in the dead of night, I have no tunes. My iTunes database is on a 500GB drive inside my ESX box, and I don't have the sound on the linux box configured yet. Damn I'm tired.
But now I keep myself pepped. Deeper still, that night, I write by candlelight. I find insight
Fundamental movement, so when it's black, this insomniac, take an original tack;
Keep the beast in my nature under ceaseless attack...I gets no sleep
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Actually, I had a Monster yesterday and I thought of you, of course. Note to self: don't try mixing it with (alcoholic) dry apple cider because it's beyond disgusting. And, no, don't all thank me at once for this incredibly helpful tidbit of information. ;)
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May the powers that be grace you with good rest, DVD box set viewing and iTunes.
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Never underestimate the power of the spousal unit.
STRESS!!!!
If there's anything I can appreciate from the army, I came away with willpower. I know you have it too, and that is why we stumble on through the darkness with bleary eyes.
I've not slept well since...
After my pre-trial on the 16th, and I refused the 90 days of jail suspended for 18 months of probation, nearly $4000 in fines and fees, 50 hours of community service, AND the pleasure of still having the DUI charged to my good name, the DA prosecutor got a scared look on his face and ran to the judge to change my court date (which would have been tomorrow). He apparently had not really reviewed my case at all (or just barely) -- so HE needed more time to prepare. Bastards. They're circling the wagons... but that's OK. They're sailing on a rickety ship and I'm about to throw Greek Fire at their ass -- and no matter where they jump, they're going to land in burning flames!!!! MWUAHAHAHAHAAHA!
OK, so call me confident. But this little episode just proved a point for me. Unfortunately, I still have school, exams, lab work, quizzes, and research papers to write before the end of this semester.
I'm not meaning to play fuzzy nuts regarding who has the greater amount of stress -- I'm just saying that I do understand my friend. Life is a crazy mixed up jumbled bowl of headcheese sometimes. And right now, I feel like somebody wants to scoop out my brains and scramble them with eggs to be served up for breakfast!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!
We shall overcome though. We shall.
Remind me when this is over -- we are going to celebrate with a beautiful bottle of expensive cognac. It will definitely be a party worth having.
Still, we need to win those battles. Between the court and my school -- I feel like an "Army of One."
Thanks for letting me rant. Good place to share thoughts. That's why we're here, right?
Oh, when I'm done with school -- I'd be happy to help you with some computer projects. I am very much missing some serious admin work. Not for a job... just my favorite hobby calling out to me right now. It's a great stress reliever.
On a side note, I have acquired some audio equipment that you might be interested in. Some complicated components, great sets of speakers, including a 5 disc CD changer. I need to be rid of it... I was hoping you might want to take a look at it, and if you like it -- it's yous.
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I should've credited that - my bad; its "Insomnia" by Faithless.
I feel like somebody wants to scoop out my brains and scramble them with eggs to be served up for breakfast!!!
You'll persevere. You always do.
Remind me when this is over -- we are going to celebrate with a beautiful bottle of expensive cognac.
I couldn't help but laugh at the irony of this statement considering its a DUI charge. I love the way you think!
That's why we're here, right?
One of many, yes.
...and if you like it -- it's yous.
I've been wanting an amplifier for the garage parties (the ones you've been to we used
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That is my LEAST favorite avatar. It makes me want to reach out and slap the kid!!!
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;)
Hope it quiets down and you get some DVD watching in. I'm going for season 4 of Buffy this week.
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