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ehowton ([personal profile] ehowton) wrote2007-12-28 12:40 pm

Responsibility


On the recommendation of one of my readers here, I watched The Weatherman with Nicolas Cage and Michael Caine. There were a lot of close ups of Nicolas Cage's face as he attempted to emote, and Michael Caine's role was almost non-existent. Only Drew Barrymore's visage on the cover of Scream was more misleading.

The Weatherman is one of those movies created for people who have no life, to be able, if only for an hour or so, to experience one. It is not a movie for those of us who have a wife, children, a job, a mortgage, two car payments, life insurance, living parents, etc. We LIVE the things daily that movies like this one try to recreate for those of you who don't. Movies like this do not entertain me because when I take time out of 'real life' to watch something like that, all I'm seeing is more 'real life.' And I'll tell you something I learned a long time ago - I'm far more entertaining than most everyone else I interact with. Most people are mopey, dull, uninteresting flotsam. They live their entire lives striving for something they never reach. Nicolas Cage's character in The Weatherman was similarly portrayed.

When [livejournal.com profile] photogoot and I were rooming together in the service, acquaintances were often bringing us people who had no personality, so that we could inspire them. I am not making this up! Like an orphanage, the doorbell would ring and we'd answer it only to find someone's personality-deficient friend on the doorstep, staring up at us with dewy eyes. YOU CANNOT INSPIRE SOMEONE WHO LACKS SELF-MOTIVATION.

Recently, I've been reminded of my own responsibilities. They are to my family, and my family alone. While I certainly enjoy you all in your different ways, and relish in the interaction we have here, your emotional well-being is not my responsibility. Lately, my wife has felt cheated, as if my time were stolen away from her with all the phone calls, emails, text messages and instant messages. Those of you who are beholden to another know and understand the look. I get the look every single time my phone makes a noise. Perhaps its because I've been off all week that I see it too?

Its been a hard week to get a hold of me. And since we're on the subject of prioritizing things in my life, a really poor example of a voice mail is one which states simply, "Call me."

I appreciate both your understanding and support. But if I can't have both, your support will suffice.

Taking care of you is causing me difficulty in being able to tend to those who see after me. And if I can't take care of myself, I will not be able to assist you. Turn my back on you? Not yet. We're not at that point. And as odd as this sounds, [livejournal.com profile] crowy put it best when she stated, "There is a difference between a problem and just plain drama. Problem: you had a bad day and need someone to talk to. Drama: every fucking day is a bad day..."

Bravo.

I've canceled all my public appearances for the rest of the month and am looking forward to a nice, quiet New Year's at home with those who matter the most to me. My family.

I wish all of you the most fantastic New Year you've ever experienced.

[identity profile] ex-crowy.livejournal.com 2007-12-31 01:49 am (UTC)(link)
You seem shocked that I am quote worthy, Mr. Howton. :)

Happy New Year to you and yours.

[identity profile] photogoot.livejournal.com 2007-12-31 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
I for one was not shocked he deemed you quote worthy. You are hardly one for wishy washy statements, and aren't direct words given with passion the best quotes?

Here here to keeping the drama mafia at bay next year!

[identity profile] ex-crowy.livejournal.com 2007-12-31 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
He did state he was not shocked I am quote worthy, but that I actually posted and he was able to quote me. :)

Thank you kindly, Sir. If nothing else, I do have passion.

Hopefully, the drama mafia will stay far, far away from me. I may get stabby soon. :)

[identity profile] leonardii.livejournal.com 2007-12-31 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
Hey - that was a good quote. Makes good sense too. Very quote-worthy! :)

[identity profile] ex-crowy.livejournal.com 2007-12-31 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, Sir. :)