Right - which puts the ball back in my court. This forces me to evaluate myself and whether or not I'm feeling positive change or uncertainty. I wish the entirety of my existence were so simple! About most things I am always filled with sunshine and light, about others, mistrust and doubt. Subconsciously who can say? Is my dreamstate in this instance focusing on the positive, or the negative? Since my optimism is my waking default is that tempered with pessimism in my sleep or being reinforced? THERE'S NO WAY TO KNOW! I'm left in such a state.